Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Our Feelings which slowly traps and kills us!!!

Our Feelings which slowly traps and kills us!!!



There come a time in one’s life when we feel trapped by our own thoughts, imaginations and secret attitude which we wish we never had; some specific attitudes which we are too ashamed to show to others because deep down inside of us we feel that people will not accept such behavior and accept us for who we are; behavior which we believe no matter how hard we try it just seems impossible to get rid of.
Sometimes as human we cannot help but commonly ask the question “Why Me!” why did I turn out to be born with such attitude which I never signed up for? Why is life treating me this way? Sometimes we wonder if maybe along the way in our life we forget how we ended up with such attitude because people always told us that there are just something’s man cannot be born with. Sometimes it feels like our thoughts of being abandoned by others for our attitudes is slowly driving us crazy because we are afraid to be left alone in this world and drown by our own thoughts, Sometimes we get to a stage in life when we wish we could go back into being that little innocent child who was free from the world of thoughts and stress, free from the horrors of life, but at some point we realize that there are some wishes which can never be granted to us and the only solution lies by forging a new path for a better future were we feel confident enough to tell people those secret attitude which we have isolated so much deep within our hearts all this while. 

We then realize that Life is like a great journey through time. During this journey we meet different people on our way; some we love as family even tho.they are not our real family;some we develop mutual friendship with; some we spend our life journey with;through the eyes of some we find the true meaning of life, through the life struggle of some we realize that our life is not as bad as we thought: if only we could compare ourselves with those below us not those above us;
through the tears of some we realize the harsh reality of life, and through the death of our loved ones we realize what it truly mean to loose someone you love.

During this period in life we also meet people who would do anything to hurt us;
people who we thought will always be there for us,even during.our happy,sad and struggle days in life.
we will also meet people who claim to be our friends but “stab us at the back” the moment we turn; 
people who cry when we do but only to realize that their cries are all fake.

people who find joy in our sorrow and find comfort when we cry. Everyone wants to know the secret of life, everyone wants to define life in  ways that suits their desire or mission but few wants to know the true reality and what life stand for because they are afraid of what they may find along the way and are not ready to face up to life.

Never say all human are the same and refuse to trust anyone; in the end, there are people who are truly out there to be with you for who you are and love you for you.
Do not be in a hurry to find friends, true friendship takes time to build





As I walked out of the plane that day and stepped my foot in the country, I knew my life had changed forever. I was afraid of what to expect, I have been to so many countries but this one was definitely different from the rest. It was strange and I felt strange.
To be sincere, I did not expect much from the country or its people; “who would have thought such country ever exists?”

 I heard about the country from a friend of mine who went on a space mission; ever since then, it made me eager to visit the country and experience what my friend told me because I never believed it existed.
Stepping my foot into the country changed everything I used to be and know, feet’s away from my plane; I looked up in the sky to confirm if I was still on earth or maybe I was transferred to a facility outside of planet earth for experiment during the period which I dozed off in the plane.
I did not have much trust for people especially my government because they were capable of going extremes all in the name of experiment even if that means hurting a soul.
After having thought for a while; I decided to summon up the courage to explore the environment; I got into a taxi I saw nearby and told him I was new in the city and needed to explore its environment.
Few minutes of having driven me around, I noticed how different and strange the country looked,  I for one knew how strange I felt inside of me about the city which I couldn’t explain.

“Why is everyone acting strange? I asked the driver reluctantly.

I really didn’t expect any real answers from a man who he himself being the driver was acting even more strange.
Glaring strangely at me, the driver gave me a very unusual short answer.

“Well here it is, my guess is right; his definitely crazy or under some sort of spell” I thought to myself.

“Your answer is quite unusual, why did you say so? I asked the driver

“Look around from the car window and you will find the answer to your question right in front of you” said the driver as he slowed down the taxi.

As I looked around, I noticed how happy everyone was in the city, not a single person on the street looked disturbed or sad. This country sure wasn’t in the Arabian Peninsula yet I saw some bunch of Arab men in their complete head coverings talking and laughing with some blacks and white westerners who I guessed are Americans because of the way they spoke, I also noticed how comfortable the Muslim women were with their complete Islamic clothing not feeling insecure or censored as terrorist.

Anyone in the city could notice the huge church and mosque sharing a single wall separating them, you didn’t need to be a secret agent to know that this city welcomed diversity and enjoy being a diverse city.

Now I get the answer but that doesn’t explain it all”

I said to the driver while pulling myself slowly from the window side.

“In this country, everyone acted like brothers and sisters, when one person gets hurt, it affects the rest of us, we do not care where anyone is, diversity and tolerance is what makes us unique” he said laughing.

I couldn’t help the emotion I felt as tears of joy rolled down my cheeks.

“The very struggles of the 21st century” I said to myself.

I have seen how people kill themselves and hurt others because of lack of tolerance, and here in front of me is a city which everyone feels welcomed.

Deep down inside, I felt angry at myself for having not helped create a similar environment.
I always knew that no matter how bad we may seem as human, deep down inside of us, there is love waiting to prevail. Sometimes the circumstances we find ourselves in may push us to hide the love we have for others, I realized we just needed to be true human, because the value of humanity is about being able to welcome and adopt differences, to show love to others no matter their race, tribe or religious afflictions.

The driver was quick to notice I was carried away in admiration of such unique country; he brought me back to reality when he said there was still one unique thing about his city.

I was already so in love with the city and couldn’t wait to hear more.

‘’This is a country where everyone has something to eat and a roof over their head, a country where the rich couldn’t sleep because he wants to make sure the poor has something to eat, a country where rich individuals with billions of dollars enough to help millions of less privileged are constantly using their money to make sure everyone is comfortable instead of spending their money on luxury and unnecessary things, this is a rare country for all, a form of hope for humanity” the driver said.

I felt so happy with this country, “where have this country been all my life? I asked myself.
Such was the life I experienced in this country, a life of happiness, fulfillment, brotherhood and above all human love in its full scale.

Do you want to know the unusual answer the driver gave me right from the start when I asked him why everyone was acting strange?

“We are one human race!” That was what he said.

Looking deeper into his statement I realized that most people do not understand what it means to be one human race, because if we did, we wouldn’t kill ourselves and abandon each other to die of poverty, diseases and hunger, this is far from being the value of brotherhood.

I now understand fully why the driver made the statement; it all summarized my experience, the love the people all share, the hope that filled the air, the joy I saw in the face of everyone, the smile that brought light to me, the brotherhood that made me have hope, such was the world I experience; a world of hope, only how I wished I could leave there forever!

I hope that someday, just someday; the light I saw the country will spread through the world.
Did I fail to mention the countries name?

Its name is “the country we never had!” This is the dream I have for the world, sorry if I forgot to mention that earlier.

Wednesday, September 15, 2010


Hello everyone. Today, I was in class and saw alot of negative, murderous images of whites murdering blacks and enjoying it. Of course this does not represent all of white america but those images caused a lot of pain within me. I was like "how in the world can you hang someone, castrate them, and bless GOD at the same time"? The images were devilish and made me sick to my stomach and almost brought me to tears. These murderous deeds were occurring only like 30 years ago. Not that far away. At times, they still happen today. Hate still lingers in peoples' heart (blacks, whites, everybody's). Hate, bitterness, false pride, whatever, can afflict any of us, none of us are immune, including myself. Bitterness, we take offense easily when someone offends us. I do the same thing. Why can't we love one another and just be kind? Why are we defensive and proud? Why are we bitter and unforgiving? Also, why do we internalize evil things and then turn and do them to our neighbor and then blame someone else for our wrongdoing? These were all the thoughts that were going through my mind. I pray that GOD can help me to wrestle with these feelings and thoughts and come up with solutions. As a country, we need to heal and forgive and confront evil attitudes and mindsets. I thank GOD that GOD can do all these things if we just humble overselves and trust GOD with our hurt and pain.

GOD bless you for reading!

Humbly submitted

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Selfishness and Manipulation = Continual Oppression

I am a African who lives in America. At times I refer to myself as African American because my ancestors have been in this country since 1785. The exact date that I listed comes my family reunion book. But now I am referring to myself as an African who resides in America. I purposefully do this to remind myself that I am connected to all Africans and peoples of African descent around the ENTIRE world. We can not think of Africans as just those who live on the continent Africa. Africans and all Black people who are scattered around the world are Africans who just happen to live in other places and have different cultural traditions. This is just my opinion and you do not have to accept it my friend. But I strongly feel that you should at least ponder the thought and in time adapt the idea into your own life. I will share with you why I feel this is of the utmost importance for people of color. Why this ideological UNITY is important for all Black peoples' futures!

Unity is so important that the Bible mentions it as essential for believers in Jesus Christ to grow in HIM. "As a prisoner for the LORD, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received....Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. (Ephesians 4:1,3).

Consider this scripture, "May the GOD who gives endurance and encouragement give you a spirit of unity among yourselves as you follow CHRIST JESUS (Romans 15:5).

I feel that unity is of the utmost importance for people of African descent globally to heal and recover from the damage that has been inflicted upon us. But the first step to healing is to believe in JESUS CHRIST who loves you and is the answer to all of the pain on this world. After that, then its important that we learn to love and respect one another and not think we are better than one another.

Over the years, I have been blessed to meet people from all over the world: Vietnamese, Chinese, Korean, Caribbean, Nigerians, Ghanaian, Tanzanian, etc.

It has been a humble joy spending time with people from all over the world but one thing troubles me in regards to people of African descent. We are not unified as we need to be.

For people of African descent most of our disunity is not our fault. Consider a  "plan" that was introduced to the slaveowners within the United States during 1712. The following quote is taken from the Willie Lynch Letter.

"I guarantee every one of you that, if installed correctly, it will control the slaves for at least 300 years. My method is simple.....I have outlined a number of differences among the slaves; and I take these differences and make them bigger. I use fear, distrust and envy for control purposes......On top of my list is “AGE,” but it’s there only because it starts with an “a.” The second is “COLOR” or shade. There is intelligence, size, sex, sizes of plantations, status on plantations, attitude of owners, whether the slaves live in the valley, on a hill, East, West, North, South, have fine hair, course hair, or is tall or short...... Now that you have a list of differences, I shall give you an outline of action, but before that, I shall assure you that distrust is stronger than trust and envy stronger than adulation, respect or admiration. If used intensely for one year, the slaves themselves will remain perpetually distrustful" (The Willie Lynch Letter). 

This evil plan was not just used in the United States but also in the West Indies. This plan is a sample of what has been done. I propose not just to Africans who reside and ancestors are from America but to all Africans around the world.

Brothers and sisters directly from Africa may say "but I was not a slave". But I will suggest that you have been through slavery too. First of all, all people including myself are a slave to sin until we allow JESUS to serve as LORD and SAVIOR of our lives and then Africans around the world are slaves mentally (not all of us) but the majority of us are slaves in the mind. But in regards to sin EVERY person we are slaves to sin until JESUS becomes our SAVIOR.

JESUS says, "I tell you the truth, everyone who sins is a slave to sin". (John 8:34).
"For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of GOD" (Romans 3:23).

Even though we are all slaves to sin, JESUS died to free us ALL from sin.

"...just as CHRIST was raised from the dead through the glory of the FATHER, we too may live a new life" (Romans 6:4b).

JESUS came to give all of us new life. So once again, my friends, all of us are slaves to sin.

Now, people of African descent have been inflicted with mental slavery and in the past physical slavery. Our physical slavery in the West lasted for over 500 years and has ceased - but there is slavery in the Eastern world. But our mental slavery and disunity is global!

This disunity is so true and I have perpetrated it and I have felt the sting of it. Many who live in Africa and who migrate around the world say "oh I was never a slave, etc". But many of them still are.

WE are MENTAL SLAVES if we think we are better than other people.
WE are a MENTAL SLAVES if we feel our culture is better than someone else's and everyone who doesn't subscribe to our culture is inferior.
WE are a MENTAL SLAVES if we can only see others' flaws but can never see our own.  
YOU are a MENTAL SLAVE if you are from Africa and you negatively look down on your African American brothers and sisters.
YOU are a MENTAL SLAVE if as an African American you think you are better than your African brothers and sisters.
YOU are a MENTAL SLAVE if you are a Caribbean you feel you are better than others.

The list is exhaustive. These thoughts have been implanted to us by those who want to stay in power and also these thoughts can come naturally because all of us and myself are sinners and in need of the love of GOD to transform our hearts towards love and not false pride.

In GOD's eyes, these thoughts are thoughts of deception and sin. GOD wants us to respect and love one another and not control one another.

Many of us of African descent realize that we are oppressed but we do not realize that the way out of this is unity. "The LORD said, 'If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them" (Genesis 11:6).

We can see from the above statement that those who want to continue to dominate peoples' of African descent do not want us to love one another and be unified but GOD is saying that we MUST do this. We must surrender our pride, and feelings to dominate one another over to GOD.

We must encourage one another and stop hurting one another! Why do we hurt one another and then get mad at the white man! We must stop killing each other! We must stop back-biting and abusing one another! We must choose love and let go of false pride! We need to build one another up. We must help our neighbors and stop stealing from our neighbors. We must love ourselves. GOD loves you and GOD wants you to love yourself! Love yourself and your neighbor! Most of all, love GOD! The way out of domination is GOD! Turn to GOD. Allow GOD to fill you with love so you can then go out and bless your neighbor.

If Mr. Lynch listened to Satan to create a system for mental and spiritual oppression then let's listen to GOD and follow GOD's plan about how to overcome the DEVIL's lies.

GOD loves you and so do I,

Edmund W. Walton

Friday, August 20, 2010

What About the Crusades?

"The fruits of Christianity were religious wars, butcheries, crusades, inquisitions, extermination of the natives of America and the introduction of African slaves in their place".
Arthur Schopenhauer
The Bible being used to dominate others and destroy hundreds of millions of lives has deeply troubled me. Sometimes, I have trouble reconciling my faith with its past. But then I pray and ask GOD for guidance. I do not claim to have all of the answers but I think GOD has shown me that just because people chose to do evil (even evil in GOD's name) doesn't mean that GOD is in the deed. JESUS says this,

"Not everyone who says to me, 'LORD, LORD,' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only the person who does the will of my FATHER who is in heaven. Many will say to me on that day, 'LORD, LORD, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers" (Matthew 7:21-23)!

JESUS is saying that just because someone does something in GOD's name doesn't mean that GOD is leading. I humbly and confidently submit that GOD was not in the degradation, subjection, raping, domination, slaughtering, of people of color within the last 500 years! 

JESUS says, "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that (all) may have life, and have it to the full" (John 10: 9-11 - New International Version). 

If a person or group of people is invading another person's land to steal, kill, and destroy, which has happened to people of color, then the group of people who participated (and only those who participated) was/is being used by the devil. I AM NOT CALLING ANY GROUP OF PEOPLE DEVILS BECAUSE COLOR OF SKIN DOES NOT DETERMINE WHETHER SOMEONE COMMITS EVIL!!!!! But what I am saying is that those who have participated in the destruction of peoples' lives in the name of GOD in my opinion are being used by the DEVIL!!! BUT thank GOD for JESUS. JESUS tells us that GOD is not in destruction but for reconciliation with all of us - if you would ONLY BELIEVE IN THE LOVE THAT GOD HAS FOR YOU!!! JESUS LOVES YOU!! JESUS DOES NOT HATE YOU!!! JESUS came to earth, lived a sinless life, died for you and rose again for you! JESUS came down to earth to save you and me from our sins. JESUS came to earth to understand the human condition and in GOD's timing JESUS will return to heal all of the damage that has been done on the earth - THROUGHOUT ALL OF HISTORY - PAST, PRESENT, AND FUTURE!!!!

"Therefore, if anyone is in CHRIST, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! All this is from GOD, who has reconciled us to himself through CHRIST and gave us the ministry of reconciliation: that GOD was reconciling the world to himself in CHRIST, not counting our sins against us. And GOD has committed to us the message of reconciliation" (2 Corinthians 5:17-19 - New International Version). 

GOD is saying that love draws a person to the good news, and the good news is that GOD loves you and made a way for you to be saved. We do not even have to create this ourselves!! It is impossible to do so :). GOD is awesome. GOD loves you! GOD loves everyone. 
GOD is so awesome that HE can take the damage that has been inflicted upon all people of color and transform it to give HIM the praise. GOD can restore us and GOD will. People of all races need to turn to GOD so that healing can occur. GOD is the way out of suffering and pain. When GOD touches people who are perpetuating evil, then change occurs. When GOD touches the victims of pain, then healing occurs. When healing eclipses evil, then GOD's glory is revealed. Would you consider turning your life over to GOD? GOD loves you! JESUS is the savior! JESUS is the redeemer. JESUS doesn't war against people but against sin! Sin is what separates all of us from GOD. JESUS died to destroy sin, and rose again to help you and me to destroy sin in our lives. 

No matter what negative historical occurrences happen, GOD will overcome it and use it for HIS glory! Consider this: "With people this is impossible, but with GOD all things are possible" (Matthew 19:26). Do not think that GOD cannot heal you and me!!! GOD will!!! GOD will restore people of color and heal the people who have hurt us and bring them to repentance.

"The LORD is not slow in keeping HIS promise, as some understand slowness. HE is patient with you and me, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance" (2 Peter 3:9). 

May GOD bless you!

Edmund W. Walton 

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Should Christian's Fight?

"A Christian has no right being in a fight unless it's a spiritual fight"
Charles Stanley

Many feel that to prove one's strength that one must fight. I am learning that this is not the best way to live. But it is the way that most of the world follows. I am not refering to self-defense because at times that is needed. For instance, if you are about to be killed or physically harmed, I feel that it is okay to use self-defense. I do not believe in the death penalty nor do I believe that if you are being attacked that you should kill the other person. I know this is hard. I have never been placed in a situation in which I truly had to defend myself, but I pray to GOD that if I do, I do not mortally harm my adversary. 

Apostle Paul says this, "For though we walk (live) in the flesh, we are not carrying on our warfare according to the flesh and using mere human weapons. For the weapons of our warfare are not physical [weapons of flesh and blood], but they are mighty before GOD for the overthrow and destruction of strongholds" (2 Corinthians 10:3-4 - The Message Version).

I feel that many conflicts of the world can be solved through love and understanding. Many of today's conflicts were sown in the past and the reprecussions are being felt today. In order to solve conflicts (I am speaking with limited knowledge) I feel that war and murder must cease. I feel that it is sin for Christians to kill - in war. In my opinion, I feel that war is evil and should NEVER occur. But that is my opinion and I know many do not agree with me.

I know some may say, "well, if you're country is being attacked, you are just going to sit back and let it get destroyed". But I think about the situation like this. The Western world (USA, Canada, Western Europe, and Australia). Is around maybe 25% of the world's population (forgive me if my statistics are off) and these nations have most of the world's income. Over one-billion people go without basic necessities but 25% of the world's population have over 50% of the world's wealth. That is craziness and injustice. Much of this wealth is earn through ill-gotten gain.

Many Christians in the western nations or nations of prosperity feel that they must support war to continue their ways of life. But I humbly submit that this is not GOD's way. GOD says to give away abundance. As rich nations, we are not practicing this. GOD says to share with the poor. We are not doing this. GOD says that if you have stolen to gather your wealth that you should give back 7 times what was stolen!!! The rich nations have not done this. But say they follow GOD.

What the rich nations have done is blamed the poverty, ethnic conflicts and things of that nature of the victims themselves!!! Yes, it is wrong what many nations are doing - in regards to killing. But what about the nations that have instigated these conflicts and have done nothing to solve them? And have instigated and planted the seeds of inferiority and destruction for over 500! What about the nation's that use GOD's name to influence their populace to commit acts of murder? This is not GOD'S way.

I humbly submit that if everyone (including myself) consider our neighbors better than ourselves then most of the world's issues can be solved. 

In my viewpoint, Christian's should NOT fight in wars. Many Christians have been deceived. They think they are fighting for GOD but they are fighting to continue the destruction of lives!!!! Hate should be met with love and understanding and prayer - not with death!! This only makes things worse.

As believers of CHRIST, I feel that all saints need to unite and fight the injustices of this world and remember that military might is not what rules in GOD's kingdom but spiritual power. 

"For the kingdom of GOD is not a matter of eating and drinking, but of righteousness, peace and joy in the HOLY SPIRIT, because anyone who serves CHRIST in this way is pleasing to GOD and approved by men" (Romans 14:17-18).  

GOD bless you and thank you for reading!!!

Respectfully submitted,

Edmund W. Walton

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Why Volunteerism is Important?

"Service is the rent we pay for the privilege of living on this earth"   
Shirley Chisholm.

Serving and assisting others is potentially one of life's greatest joys. Volunteering in the community or in a social agency can potentially change someone's life! Volunteering and helping others can potentially lift the volunteer out of an emotional, physical, or spiritual rut. "Knowing you did something good brings an emotional uplifting that can never be matched by money or fame" (Why Volunteering is Important).

I feel that volunteering and acts of service are also what GOD calls all of us too. We do not have to be "great" or "famous" to serve those who are in need. Those who are in need are all around us, possibly even in our own homes but the busyness of life influence us to not notice.

Consider what JESUS said, "Whoever wants to be great must become a servant. That is what the Son of Man has done: He came to serve, not to be served....." (Mark 10:41-46 - Message Bible).

During my life, I have been blessed with many opportunities to serve those who are in need, and many times I did this when I was struggling in my own life. But I have learned and I am still learning that when you focus on helping others, GOD can take care of your seemingly unchangeable situation(s) because your focus is on uplifting others.

You may feel that volunteerism isn't for you but I encourage you to know that you can do it! By GOD's grace, I have served in large religious organizations as a greeter, small group facilitator, and as a youth minister. Beyond this, I have assisted men who were recently released from incarceration. Many were incarcerated for over thirty years! Many were emotionally, spiritually, or physically broken. I assisted men from prison starting at twenty-years old. When I first started, I was terrified! But I am thankful to GOD that I was given the privilege to serve. Many were charged for crimes that society would consider non-redeemable but all things are possible with GOD!

Through my various volunteer experiences, I gained a better understanding of the wisdom of not being judgmental. At times, a lack of empathy, understanding, or sympathy may influence us to be judgmental. Nevertheless, now is the time to overcome judgmental attitudes and fear. You can use your time, talent, and treasure to heal and bless others through volunteerism.

Consider this story: "Six months after complaining about a sore throat, Eric Hartwell died from cancer at the University of Michigan's C.S. Mott Children's Hospital. He was 9 years old. After such heartbreak, many parents would avoid returning to its setting. Hartwell's father, Mike, came back. At Mott, 15 people who have lost children eventually returned to the hospital to help others going through the same thing.... "I ask myself every day, 'Have I made a difference?'" said Hartwell. "If I haven't I feel like I failed him." Hartwell and the others have taken something devastating and twisted it into something positive" (Parents who lost children return to aid others at hospital).

GOD can turn any painful situation into something that can be used for good. Mr. Mike lost his son to cancer....but even through his pain, Mr. Mike made his mind up to help others in need! We all should strongly consider following the lead of Mr. Mike.

You can do it. I can do it. Let's remember that it's not too hard to help someone. One day we will need help and we will need someone to assist us. Let's continue the cycle of helping others.

GOD loves you!

Humbly sumbitted,

Edmund W. Walton

From The Detroit News: http://www.detnews.com/article/20100802/LIFESTYLE03/8020339/1040/From-death--volunteerism#ixzz0x1U2WHXK